Keeping my "BLOG MOUTH" shut

Well I have kept my “Blog Mouth” shut about all of this stuff, but I think I am ready to share my feelings. I have been praying A LOT for god to help me be graceful. Graceful with my actions, with my words, and mostly in the feelings of my heart. Those of you who know me well know I struggle with my words.

So bare with me! Now Tab Lewis told me along time ago, Cody “People will let you down because they are people but God is always God always perfect, and HE will never let you down.” I have tried to remember that as time has gone on. A lot of times we put our faith in a person, or in a church, or in our works. They are all in the end not Christ, and we will be let down I am sure at some point by all of those other things.

I think we put pastors on a pedestal a lot of times almost like they are superhuman perfection. They are not they are just regular folks who screw up and have bad days just like the rest of us. I think sometimes we pour our heart and soul into a ministry or a church and when we leave we feel like we left God at that church or we left our heart and soul behind at a PLACE????? Well your heart may hurt but it dwells inside of you and so does Christ, he is not a place.

For a short while I wanted to run to that PLACE and defend myself shout at people and tell them can you not see what you are doing! Are you blind to all the anointed in your church? Do you know what GREAT GIFTS you are throwing out the door because you are not willing to sit down and work through some problems? You are willing to throw some of the greatest gifts God has blessed the ministry of WAC with under the bus to save face.

I then realized I don’t have to justify my gifts, or my husband’s gifs, or the gifts of others to anyone. God knows the hearts of all, he knows what gifts he has given, and he has a plan for exactly where those gifts will be used. He has a plan and it is not for us to fight and scream at some one.

I think it is for us to all lift one another up during this time of struggle. That is fully what I intend to do! I have been praying for WAC that God would continue to bless people through that ministry. I pray he would change the lives of people like my husbands life was changed while there. I pray he would give us all a clear vision of where he is leading us now, and what he would have us to do. I serve an amazing God.

So I may have left a place but I have not left my God!

I am disappointed, hurt, and heartbroken, but I refuse to be bitter. I will not let the devil steal my Joy. I have praised God from inside the doors of WAC and I will continue to do that outside of them.

I know God has a plan for me and my family. How could one person be so screwed up and be delivered by none less than Christ and his GRACE & HEALING and not continue to be used in some way!

So I end in saying I am happy in a way, happy God is leading us in a new direction. Excited to see where we will be and what we will be doing!

Psalms 3:3-6 says but you are a shield around me o Lord you bestow glory on me and lift up my head. To the Lord I cry aloud and he answers me from his holy hill. I lie down and sleep I wake again because the Lord sustains me. I will not fear the tens of thousands drawn up against me on every side.

It also speaks about SELAH which means stop, look, listen
That is our plan….


My heart morns the loss of a place I held so dear to my heart and the relationships I made there, but I am secure in knowing greater things are yet to come!

In Him,
Cody

TINKA SOUL!

So while downtown last weekend I met a guy by the name of TimTV he is part of a freak show called The Inner Cirkus! Pretty awsome folks! They spend alot of time hulahooping in falls park! REALLY FUN! I have hooped with them and you do find your inner child again somehow while hulahooping as an adult.

Anyways he gave Boo his card so I followed it to his myspace page where I found the following blog. You can tell by the looks of this VERY DIFFERENT 37 year old man, he has a very open mind and an obvious third eye!

HERE'S THE BLOG

Yesterday I wrote a letter to my friend Amelia. As I was writing, this happened and I wrote it as I saw it...
I'm sitting in the lobby area of our public library. It's got softfurniture and tables and wireless internet for people like me who needto send emails to people like you. The ceiling is forever tall andone whole wall is all windows to the sidewalk outside. A little girljust walked by a moment ago. Her walk was not a walk like a regularperson would picture "walking" to be. It was more like a dance. Her spiritinside was dancing so much that it came out through her walk. On herface I could see that she could hear the music of the Universe. Clearas day. Her dad couldn't hear it; he didn't even notice. The manwaiting for the bus couldn't hear it; he was too busy... waiting. Butthat litle girl was like a perfect little kite, effortlessly at onewith the flow of the Way. Isn't it so funny, that what at one time in their lives most peoplehad, they spend the rest of their lives looking for...? And evenfunnier to me; they always look OUTSIDE themselves to find it. Heh.
ai o komete,
me


Anyways I loved this blog because it made me think of my Meccia! She at only five years old much like her parents marches to the beat of a different drummer! She is her own little person who can sometimes be found in her own little world! She is a kind and caring person who is wonderful inside and out! Sometimes in the middle of my stress and crazy day I am running around like a wild person I will find her in a tutu dancing around with not a care in the world. She sings all the time her latest is "life is a highway" LOL Anyways when we named her Meccia Soul we could not have hit the nail any closer her soul flys free. She is the little girl in that library and I hope somehow she can hold onto that free spirit. I would be just as proud of her if she turns out to be a dancer or maybe even a hulahooper as I would if she where a boring doctor or something! I love you Meccia keep listening to the song life sings to you and keep your heart open one day it will take you great places!
Mommy