TINKA SOUL!

So while downtown last weekend I met a guy by the name of TimTV he is part of a freak show called The Inner Cirkus! Pretty awsome folks! They spend alot of time hulahooping in falls park! REALLY FUN! I have hooped with them and you do find your inner child again somehow while hulahooping as an adult.

Anyways he gave Boo his card so I followed it to his myspace page where I found the following blog. You can tell by the looks of this VERY DIFFERENT 37 year old man, he has a very open mind and an obvious third eye!

HERE'S THE BLOG

Yesterday I wrote a letter to my friend Amelia. As I was writing, this happened and I wrote it as I saw it...
I'm sitting in the lobby area of our public library. It's got softfurniture and tables and wireless internet for people like me who needto send emails to people like you. The ceiling is forever tall andone whole wall is all windows to the sidewalk outside. A little girljust walked by a moment ago. Her walk was not a walk like a regularperson would picture "walking" to be. It was more like a dance. Her spiritinside was dancing so much that it came out through her walk. On herface I could see that she could hear the music of the Universe. Clearas day. Her dad couldn't hear it; he didn't even notice. The manwaiting for the bus couldn't hear it; he was too busy... waiting. Butthat litle girl was like a perfect little kite, effortlessly at onewith the flow of the Way. Isn't it so funny, that what at one time in their lives most peoplehad, they spend the rest of their lives looking for...? And evenfunnier to me; they always look OUTSIDE themselves to find it. Heh.
ai o komete,
me


Anyways I loved this blog because it made me think of my Meccia! She at only five years old much like her parents marches to the beat of a different drummer! She is her own little person who can sometimes be found in her own little world! She is a kind and caring person who is wonderful inside and out! Sometimes in the middle of my stress and crazy day I am running around like a wild person I will find her in a tutu dancing around with not a care in the world. She sings all the time her latest is "life is a highway" LOL Anyways when we named her Meccia Soul we could not have hit the nail any closer her soul flys free. She is the little girl in that library and I hope somehow she can hold onto that free spirit. I would be just as proud of her if she turns out to be a dancer or maybe even a hulahooper as I would if she where a boring doctor or something! I love you Meccia keep listening to the song life sings to you and keep your heart open one day it will take you great places!
Mommy

ok so here goes i have been having some issues with my weight i was on the depo shot and i take a medication for OCD both make u gain weight on top of that i had two boys 15 months apart but that being said i weigh 20LBS more now than the day i came home from the hospital with East so i must take some responsibility i am frustrated and want to be skinny again like i used to be! i have been on a low cal diet for a week tom/ SUN I have been walking everyday pushing my boys in a double stroller combined wieght is about 90LBS boys + stroller so i give myself a little extra credit for that think it does not make a difference then i challenge you to try it alone and then push my boys alone is much less work i know i have done it! anyways back to walking i reached my 4 mile a day goal today I WAS SO HAPPY! plan is to stick to that 4 miles a day everyday! i have been a little frustrated because dispite all my hard work this week i have yet to loose one single pound! i thought i had then learned my scale was off! i went to the bariatric clinic and i just cant do it i want to do this on my own with out having to take pills i have changed my birth control and i am determined to beat this! i am not going to put my actual weight on here but will post when each ten pounds has been lost i would like to loose 55 LBS! i even thought about putting a sign in my front yard that states how much weight i have lost so when all my neighbors see that crazy girl pushin those poor babies around the block over and over twice a day they will all know why! today i passed some girls i went to high school with in a store i heard them whisper theres cody she has gotten big! i got in my car called josh and just cried josh said cody you have always been fueled by anger you know i am the person if u tell me i cant i will just to prove you wrong so josh said dont let it upset you let it make you mad! so i did and as i was huffin and puffin my way around my block that last mile i heard those whispers in my head and it helped me to press on and keep going! others negativity only makes me stronger! now i am not writing this so a bunch of people can tell me what diet worked for them or even to get kind words i know from having 10LB babies with no medication when it comes down to pushing it out no one can help you it is just you and the strength god gives you! so i dont need your help i know to get this weight off its just me and god unless you wanna push me around the block in a stroller what i would like from those of you who are reading this who really know me pray gods blessing opon this mission i have set out for myself pray god would give me a strength only he can provide pray health into my life and dont stop at just one prayer i will take as many as u all are willing to send up! i am tough i know i can do this!