The view from my pedestal

Well today I did it...I always do....No matter how much I try...I always let my mouth get out of control....AT TIMES I might even act a little childish or "redneck"

I have always been opinionated and loud, a little too blunt, and overly honest...to a fault at times...I am so true at times sometimes I feel if I keep my mouth shut when I think something or have a thought cross my mind that I might be "fake" to keep that feeling to myself...

The old "I felt it there for it shall be said" rule that's in the bible I am sure...Somewhere it must be.

The people that know me best know my heart, they know I am a sinner with a bad background one filled with drugs, premarital sex, teen pregnancy, lies, and divorce.

They also know I am a changed person in many ways. I have left much of my past behind me. You see I knew the Lord when I did all of those things...just didn't care too much about what he thought about it...Knowing the Lord and having a relationship with him are two different things you know.

Now getting back to what those who know me best know about me...Well they also know I am sarcastic, moody, and will flip on another person in about 3 seconds if given the right situation. This is something I am not proud of. I do not do a great job at controlling my mouth nor my anger.

You see I think when you refer to yourself as a "christian" people tend to put you on a "perfection-ometor" or they put you on this pedestal that God knows you will never live up to.

Today I was approached with this statement..."I thought you were supposed to be a Christian?"

My first reaction to that was

1. I AM

2. What do you care

3. Stop worrying about my relationship with the Lord and worry about your own.

BUT
After thinking about it for a while I came to this conclusion. The Lord commands us to love others, and I will try to do this.

This person is hard to love and I am trying to get my heart right about that...

For now these are the things I would say to her if she were reading this...

First I am sorry for my childishness

Second I would encourage you to work on your relationship with Jesus and pull from him your "view" of perfection because Christians here on earth will NEVER meet that expectation for you.

My prayer for myself would be that I could control my mouth and my anger when I am attacked.
because in Gods word it tells us RECKLESS WORDS PIERCE LIKE A SWORD BUT THE TONGUE OF THE WISE WOMAN BRINGS HEALING

Also I would tell you this
THERE IS DECEIT IN THE HEARTS OF THOSE WHO PLOT EVIL BUT JOY FOR THOSE WHO PROMOTE PEACE.
Proverbs 12:22

I pray this for you...That you would find it in your heart to understand this verse and put it into practice...