I HATE you so much right now!

Dear Sir,

I am a friend of your girlfriend/your wife/your daughter. I want you to know a few things...

I hate you when I see her broken. I hate you when I see her tears. I hate you when I see the person you have made her become. I hate what you do to her on the inside and out. You control her even more than you think. I hate that she works to keep your heart. Your heart is distant, cold, unreachable. She will never be good enough to make you change. I hate the bruises that cover her body because you think this makes you a man? The screams don't matter to you and your apologies don't matter to me!

It sickens me to think you have convinced her this is her fault or even worse that you have beat her down to the point she feels as though she deserves it! I hate the way you speak to her, the way you use her, the way you cheat her out of life. I hate how she smiles when you call because she doesn't realize what a punk you really are! I hate the way she won't take my help when I offer to take her far away to a place where there is love and safety!

You know what I hate the most! I hate the control you have over me!! I hate that you can feel my soul with such dark feelings! I hate that you have taken my friend! I hate that you make me cry for her that you make my heart break for her pain!

I am praying God will heal her pain. That one day she will realize I write and feel these things because I love her.

You are no man! You are a child! You are a child of God even if I think you don't deserve to be so I will even pray for you.

Cody

In my Life....

I have been having intentional devotions lately. I am ashamed to tell you that is not something I have always done in my life. I feel like God has been revealing and convicting during my recent quiet time. Although not always so quietly, Jesus is speaking to me.

Today God brought to my attention John 16:33
You will have suffering in this world. Be courageous! I have conquered the world.

We grow up having expectations, the house we will live in, the car we will drive, that we will never be sick, or even how perfect our spouse will be. We don't see a point in preparing for disappointment.

Jesus was upfront with his disciples when he told them what to expect in life. If we want to avoid the anger and disappointment that comes with the unrealistic thoughts of our "perfect life" then we must not insist that it be perfect....

We can not base our moods on how things are going. We need to put our confidence in God, who never changes, and choose to be ok with a life that IS GOING to change from moment to moment.

In 1Peter 4:12-13 it says Dear Friends do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.